I’m tired… Of pretending, of breathing, of living…
I really don’t see any light in my life…
How do people manage to be happy? The girl, my friend, who is 3 years yonger than me, only talks about happiness, love. She makes me sick :/ Where is it?
I want to be happy. But, I suppose i wasn’t born for that :( I have to live with this mad ugly head, that has too many thoughts in it, and even worse, with this fat body :(
I’m lost. I don’t know what to do, everyday is the same. Ok, sometimes i’m better (when i don’t eat) and sometimes i can’t leave my room…
Think.
Think before you pick up that bag of chips, or that slice of pizza, or that chocolate chip cookie.
What would you rather have? Those calories? Or a body like this? A satisfied belly for a few hours? Or a satisfied sense of well being for years?
Toned muscles. The ability to wear anything and feel good in it. Self confidence. You can have these things, and you know it.
So decide. Are you going to eat a cookie, or a carrot stick? Lay on the couch, or do crunches? Decide. It’s up to you, and nobody else.
(Source: fortheloveofperfection, via getting-that-fit-ass)
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Here are more celebrities that I like :)
KATE MOSS - it’s enough to say her name, she’s perfect
LEIGHTON MEESTER - Love her face!!!
MARY KATE OLSEN - I love her body and style, although I prefer taller girls because i’m quite tall
SARAH JESSICA PARKER - She’s short and tiny too
Mila Kunis :D
VICTORIA BECKHAM - She’s amazing! Harper is 2 months old and Victoria looks sooo good :O
(Source: collarbonesxoxo)
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Love Serena’s look here :)
I wish I didn’t choose recovery few years ago when i was officially anorexic. I wish i starved myself to death. I would be dead now and everyone’s life would be better. Actually, i have never recovered. I just went from anorexia to binge eating. And gained weight.
Today, my father called me fat. AGAIN.
We were having lunch and my mother made made french fries :( I told her that i had a big breakfast, so i ate a soup and a tomato. My brother: ‘I am thin and I can eat whatever I want’. My father: ‘Yeah, we are all thin except you( me)’.
I want to die! I KNOW I’M FAT. YOU DON’T HAVE TO REMIND ME.
Really, most of the time I’m thinking about losing weight and how fat i am, but when somebody else says that, it hurts so much.
And i don’t get it. When i was at my LW, they used to say i have to gain weight until i have healthy weight. But now, my BMI is 19 and i’m fat.
Kill me if i binge once more!!!! I have to lose weight!!!
(via ang-j)
